Valentine’s Day

Is anyone else kind of dreading Valentine’s Day?? About a month ago I was feeling pretty excited and thinking of gift ideas, but the more it approaches the more bitter I start to feel.

I think part of it is that February 24th marks a year since DDay, and Valentine’s last year is when he slipped up during a fight and I really realized something was going on which prompted me to go through his phone.

I’ve been trying to plan date night and gifts but I keep having this voice in my head that’s like he doesn’t even deserve a thoughtful gift after what he did to me and I’m just feeling so angry and sad and resentful.