Im a daughter who lost her father exactly two weeks ago. Can someone here say anything and everything that’ll just help me with this.

I had rationalized the situation that my dad is too sick now and him making a full recovery would be very difficult so when he flat lined and then was on ventilator for 48 hours and then passed away I was fine. Surprisingly. Its been 18 days since i last spoke to him and i think i have just cried 3-4 times and one was a major cry others normal. Still I don’t know why today it feels weird that he is really gone and ain’t coming back ever. I know he is in a better place where there is no pain like the one he was enduring during those last months, still today I just feel weird. I feel empty. I feel way too much of silence inside me and in the outside world. I just want to be strong and move on because he suffered a lot in these two years and do did my mom and me. But again I want to process my trauma properly. I don’t want to over rationalize everything to drain away emotions. Also I don’t want to sulk. Idk if I make sense. I just need the right balance where I miss him but also it doesn’t destroy me In future also cause currently Im fine except for today’s weird feeling.