I’m so upset

My first playthrough and I’m playing in hard, I just burned the tree and then it said to wait a day so I checked out the radio tower and I got lost in the banshee maze and just went deeper and deeper and did the hallucination and it said I couldn’t get out and on my way back I got lost and just got killed in the corner and lost the whole game. 17.5 hours down the gutter. I don’t even want to play it anymore to get the ending. I’m so close. I don’t even know what happens but I don’t wanna replay it all just for the ending I don’t know what to do.