Why do I need drugs to have fun?

Hello all! Im currently in the process of quitting nicotine and it really sucks and it made me notice. I always need to do something to enjoy myself. Wether it be vaping smoking a ciggarette smoking a joint blunt etc. I'll be sitting in my room watching youtube and the thought of doing SOMETHING would be soooo nice instead of sitting here sober.

I wouldnt say im addicted to these drugs because i am able to get through my day without them and not really care about it. Untill i think of it once, than im stuck on the thought of it and how much better it would be compared to being here bored out of my mind trying to find something to do yet i cant find anything. No game no youtube video no show nothing.

I dont entirely know what im asking or where to post it but i just dont wanna depend on these for my fun. I wanna be able to laugh at a youtube video without being fried out of my mind. Or play a game longer than 10 minutes because its no longer boring. Even going outside on a walk ill have the thought of how much better it would be with a joint or a ciggarette.