I just want to be a girl

I hate being alive.

I hate going outside.

I hate it I hate it I hate it.

I just see women my age wearing the clothes I want, having the body I want with boyfriends and I just fucking sob.

Why can't that be me, why can't that be my life. WHY CANT I JUST BE FEMALE.

I HATE BEJNG A FUCKING TRANNY.