im looking for help, please

i'm not looking for pity, i just need help. even if all you can do is wish me luck, that's good enough

i've been trying to recover for over two years, but have many recurrences and relapses and i think it's because i'm doing this on my own. many of my friends know, and do their best to support me but i don't have any professional help. i lack professional support because i'm a teen and i cant tell any adults, but i desperately need help. can anyone please tell me how i can recover without the help of adults? please, i'm begging; if you have had professional help, please share the advice with me i need it. i can't wait until i'm an adult to fix this. i'm in absolute hell someone please help me

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edit: hey everyone, i just wanted to give a big thank you to everyone who is supporting me and encouraging me to seek professional help <3 on this day (January 25) i am 3 months clean and proud!! i have a lot of other things on my plate to deal with and so do my parents, so i haven't told them yet but i have been doing light research on eating disorders to see how i can help myself recover. since i don't have professional help YET i do simple things to remind myself why i am recovering and i avoid any triggers. thanks again to everyone who is encouraging me and giving me advice, it means the world to me!