How can you still stay in GME ?

Honestly I’m so done with this. Since may last year I‘m in this whole shit. Lost a shit ton of money in options trading so I just kept sticking to the stock. But honestly since the start of the year I keep losing my patience and trust. If we are on the strong side of this whole shit then please tell me, why is GameStop down in EVERY friday to max pain ? When we are going to win, when we are on the verge of anything, then why they still have to wiggle their dick for a second and get GameStop to max pain ? This doesn’t make any sense to me anymore.