Maybe i'm in love with the idea of love?

I'm 20F and I've always been a hopeless romantic and I've been in a few relationships.. tara k hunxa vanesi when someone starts liking me back i get the ick and start pushing that person away.

ek dui choti vako vaye ta I would've ignored it tara frequently yesto hunxa.

has someone been experiencing this as well or is this normal? or do i just need to talk this out with a therapist?