I don’t know how to proceed. Any advice would be much appreciated

Hi everyone. I hope you are all doing well:) I’ve been lurking this sub for about a year now, and have known of Neville since 2022. I have manifested many successes, and have no doubt in the law. However, I notice once things start going the way I want- I randomly enter a low/ depressed state and obviously my 3D reflects that and everything becomes undone and I restart. I’ve been taking 2 steps forward and a step back everytime and I am wondering WHY I am doing this to myself and how to stop. A funny situation is that I manifested going on romantic dates with my girl, yet she continues to call us friends. We hold hands, we have intimate moments, we share the same bed yet it’s in a “friendly” way only. I’m wondering what is going on as the law is clearly working - just not in the exact way I want?

I’ve been struggling for a while but have been afraid to ask for help as I’ve had some negative interactions, but I whole heartedly appreciate any and all advice and would love to hear an outside perspective. Perhaps I am too stuck in my own head. If you read this far thank you lol