Can we talk about comparison?

ROCD hitting reallllly hard right now. I’m with my family for the holidays and it feels like all anyone is talking about is my sibling’s partner and how wonderful they are.

Sibling is so happy in their relationship as they should be. I know it’s dangerous to compare and “no relationship is perfect” but it sucks to at almost every interaction have an example of what I wish my relationship was like. Plus I feel like everyone else is comparing mine & sib’s partners / relationships. Anytime I tell a story about my partner I feel like I’m trying to sell my family on our relationship.

Fam unfortunately knows about previous times I’ve had doubts about my (kind & caring) partner so while I’ve vowed not to bring it up again to them, it’s like I can’t put the toothpaste back in the tube.