The red John I wanted

I’ve been rewatching the mentalist and I just got to the red John reveal and I was so disappointed. Again. I mean I wanted a red John criminal mastermind. I wanted a red John who just wanted to teach that upstart Jane a lesson he’d never forget but who’s now as obsessed with Jane as Jane is with him. What I got was a letdown. I wanted a red John who secretly worms his way into Jane’s life to get into his every crack and crevice so that Jane’s every moment is about red John, whether he knows it or not. I wanted a red John who was Craig o’Laughlin. Who gets into the cbi by pretending to date van pelt. What’s Craig doing here? Oh he hasn’t got a case on at the moment so he’s just hanging about waiting for grace. Grace is busy rn tho. Yeah that’s why he’s hanging on the couch and talking to Jane. A witness being interviewed by Cho sees them together and comments how it’s so nice that the govt is now allowing same sex relationships in office. Oh they’re not together. I don’t think? They’re just super close. I wanted a red John who’s intimately involved in Jane’s life. Who has the honor of having the closest thing Jane knows to trust. Who Jane involves in his hunt for red John. Later red John laughs to himself. The irony of red John hunting red John. I wanted a red John who lets Jane win some just to see that spark of hope in his eyes, that bright vengeful smile on his lips. Who sometimes also makes him lose some. Just to feel that rush of power. But also (secretly bc he doesn’t necessarily even want to admit to himself) to feel that exhilaration when Jane comes to him (comes to HIM!) upset and lets him hold him. That insidious red john. That’s what I wanted. What I got… was a let down.