Am I really at the point that only medication will help me?

19m chronically anxious all the time, also have adhd but that’s not the thing I’m asking about but mentioning in case it’s related.

I’m always, socially in particular but in general anxious 24/7. I don’t let it stop me doing stuff or I try to at least but it’s still just destroyed my quality of life immensely.

I don’t know what to do. I’m constantly in a low mood and hating myself as well, but I’ve tried everything. I work out, I’ve been to years of therapy, I’m always in an uncomfortable situation so exposure therapy isn’t it. Getting a fucking hair cut is exposure therapy for me this is my life.

I’ve spoke to my GP and they say all they can do first is prescribe SSRIS then if they first ones don’t work after so many months they try another and basically if I want anything different I have to work my way through every SSRI available to the NHS.

The trouble is I’m finally at a place were im really happy with my body, I’ve worked out for a long time and seeing really good results and I don’t want to nuke all that with SSRIs. I’ve watched in person how they can change someone’s body and I don’t want that I really don’t. And in the chance they don’t work, which statistically is REALLY high then I’m now just wayyyyy worse off.

I’m not on adhd medication and will never be for years unfortunate reality of were I live. My GP reminded me that can help regulation if I ever decide to go private. Which I obviously can’t do as a uni student as you know ignoring the first 2 grand it’s then 300 a month for medication.