Is terfmaxxing a viable strategy for femreppers?

Did it before and consider doing it again but I'm not sure. First of all, I'm not really a feminist and I believe females are biologically inferior to males, also my life experiences have made me misogynistic and scared of women. I guess I'm just desperate to find a community where I'm accepted, and I don't fit in trans/LGBT community at all. Also, I remember being just as miserable back then when I was a terf, the only difference is that I'm hrt repping now, and having male hormones in my body makes me slightly less miserable. I'm not going to stop taking T, it's not doing much for me anyway but I can pretend to be a detransitioner probably (my voice is kinda clocky and I have a bit of facial hair). What do you think, is it worth it to try and join terf/detrans communities? Will they make everything even worse? I'm genuinely going insane, social isolation is killing me and I can't bring myself to socialize as a woman, it makes me physically sick.