Please don’t be mad at me.

I’m not telling you what’s going on right now not because I don’t trust you, not because I don’t think you can handle it or anything like that. It’s because I know you will. I’ll tell you later. I’ll tell you when things don’t feel like they’re so on fire for you. Not because you’re weak not because you’re too much. I just don’t wanna burden you with it. I don’t wanna bother you. I don’t want to add and I know I will if I tell you right now. I don’t know if this is me trying to be selfless or being selfish because I’m so afraid of adding instead of giving you the choice of telling me if I am.

Please don’t be mad at me , I’m doing my best, you’re doing your best. I’m not sure if this is the best thing. I’m not sure the best thing exists.