currently hypomanic, 1 month sober tmo & want to drink

so ive been hypo this past week and i can feel it getting less and less intense and am feeling it get more into a mixed state and coming down and im willing to do literally anything to stay hypomanic ive been so productive and have felt so good. i want to drink but tmo ill be one month sober and i know its a bad idea but not the end of the world. i dont know what im looking for by posting this, i guess just not feeling alone and support? anyways, thank you for reading this i feel like im in the trenches LOL

edit: it’s the next morning and i didn’t drink:) thank you to everyone who commented, this community is so supportive🫂