So many questions, don’t want answers

Emi coincidence idi? Or is it karma? How did we end up in the same restaurant when we haven’t even contacted each other in so long? How did I not see you for the first ten minutes, happily chatting with my friends, while you sat there glancing at me, nodding to whatever your brother was rambling about since the start of dinner?

I’ve always been bad with dates, but then I remembered, it was your parents anniversary kada. You once told me we would be celebrating eighty anniversaries together. Was that just one of the thousands of deluded conversations we had?

Emo, inka I don’t know. Nee valla another nice evening was gone overthinking. I couldn’t be that fun girl again after meeting your eyes in that restaurant,far away, yet too close… and still so far, where the distance is and should only be growing

Did you move on completely? Did I? Probably a no. Did I think I was moving on? A very big yes. Did I not realize that I’m still stuck big time? Maybe.

Did I pretend to need to use the washroom just to test if you’d follow? Did you know I would want to talk to you?Enduku lavender esav? are you still wearing my favorite color on special occasions?

You told me I looked pretty? Did you really mean that? If you lied to me now, does that mean all the thousands of times you told me I looked beautiful were also lies?

Asslalu, why did you stand so far away from me and pretend like we were just friends in the past and were very glad to meet each other again?

Do you know how much it hurts to see you wearing that watch, the one you gifted me, the one I threw on your face. Does that remind me? Or are you just trying to save an electronic watch from going to waste?

Why did you have to say, "I really want you to have a very nice life" while leaving? Did it not cross your mind that it’s the same life you disturbed? The same life you threw away by being an asshole?

I feel disgusted that I felt something in my gut when I saw you again. Enduku antha bhaav istunna neeku?

I saw the look your mom gave me while leaving. Jaaliga enduku choostunnaru na vaipu? As usual, she doesn’t know that you are the reason we broke up. And her Raja Beta is an amazing human kada? You should try telling her what you did to me

God, how do I hate a person so much yet still wish for them to have a good life? Hope you got that promotion, and I hope now, at least, you can go to your onsite jobs without me holding you back

Sare, inka chesedi em undhi. Konchem sepu badhapadi na matuku nenu Insta chooskunta. Next time you see me, ah vadhule next time I don’t want to see you ever in my life.