Canceled my checkride

I just made a no-go decision for my checkride because I didn’t like the crosswind component and feel exhausted bc I couldn’t sleep thinking about the checkride. I know I’m making the right decision for myself but I feel bad for wasting the DPE’s time and a slot that another person could have had. I also feel like I’m letting down my instructor as I have had my checkride cancelled twice before due to extremely bad weather (icing gotta love the Midwest) and this isn’t bad comparatively but I just don’t believe I’d conduct a safe flight today.