i wish i enjoyed bottoming instead of topping

i’m 21 and i’ve tried bottoming a few times before and never enjoyed it, but i did sort of enjoy topping. i have a problem tho, and it’s that i don’t and can’t see myself as a “top”, and neither do other guys. This is because of the way i look. i’m very short and very skinny (5’2 and like 105lbs) so every gay guy i meet wants me to bottom for them like i’m some submissive petite twink. So finding a guy that sees me that way is difficult if not impossible.

Another problem i have is that i don’t like butts lol i like watching guys fuck, so it would make sense that i enjoyed bottoming right? i like men, i like seeing men fuck like animals, i like dick, and i’m not into butts. But i don’t like bottoming, it just doesn’t feel good like topping does. Plus i’m soon gonna get surgery down there and i probably won’t be able to do anal again or at least in a very very long time.

I feel like if i looked different, you know taller more muscular whatever, i wouldn’t have a hard time finding someone’s who’s compatible