Hospital Bed Stage

My mom has been on hospice for over 3 months now. Not eating. Drinking very little so she’s very weak. I’ve been pushing for a hospital bed to help us all out. Lifting her to wheel chair and then out of wheel chair into bed or onto the potty chair or into her recliner. She agreed to the bed and they delivered it today. Now she’s not happy with it. And I’m not sure I am either. She looks so much sicker in it. Makes it so much more real. And I feel like crap for pushing it. Laying here with tears running. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life. I just want her suffering to end. It’s not fair.