Being a nazi and a slave at the same time

Of course, it is referred to my past ancestry. I am literally the descendant of a past nazi austrian family who hated jews and still made casual remarks like:" too many of them have been left". A lovely comment made by my white grandma. While on the other side of the family i'm the descendant of slaves. It is a weird combo. Whenever this thought comes to my mind, i just think of how my white ancestors would have gladly put my black ones in a concentration camp and killed them with no compassion. But being mixed race can also mean this, bringing 2 so far away cultures and histories together and live as just one.

Idk why i'm writing this now, this thought just pops up to my mind from time to time and makes me reflect a little.