My dad doesn't understand that forgiveness does NOT equal contact

I just need to rant somewhere and sorry if this is not the correct place to do that..

I went NC with my dad a few years ago and prefer not to discuss too many details about it, as this post is not about that right now. It's about the fact that while I made clear on multiple occasions that I've forgiven him, he keeps telling other people that the reason I remain NC is because I wouldn't have forgiven him.

Today I received a letter from an aunt, telling me how hard it is for my dad to lose two daughters (one died before I was even born). And she asked me if I would please consider forgiving my dad and try to contact him again. Telling me how she made mistakes too and was forgiven by her children and God. I've already forgiven him, but I want to remain NC because his influence on my life is just unhealthy for me. He talks fears into my head, makes me see the bad side of my friends and people around me, talks my interests down when they don't align with his view of "normal people" and keeps blaming my chronic illnesses and situation on myself.. I'm not ready to deal with any of that right now and just need some peace and forget he exists for a few months..

I just wish he would actually listen and know he's forgiven. I tried telling him multiple times even though I do NOT want contact with him. I've sent him a letter, replied to a few messages and explained to family trying to contact me. I just need him to leave me alone and find who I am without his influence on my life. I know it's hard for him and he misses me and maybe even genuinely loves me, but I need this distance right now..