I’m not ready

I decided to try to put my 9wko in his crib for the first time ever to take a nap. And he’s fine with it. This was just supposed to be a trial run as I didn’t think he would actually stay asleep since he’s only ever contact napped. I played myself and now I’m sad sitting on the couch while he sleeps peacefully in his crib 🙃 first world problems I know but I really love feeling him breath and his little noises he makes.