Di ko alam anong ginagawa ko sa buhay

Mukhang mapapahaba to so ilabas ang kape guys. Char. To start, 32 na ko. Graduated from one of the big 4. Licensed Engineer. With master's degree. First few working years ko was aligned with my undergrad course then sinabay ko ung pagtake ng masters. Nagustuhan ko ung masters (unrelated sa undergrad) and chose to switch careers na aligned dito.

At 28, I had to take an entry level position since wala akong prior experience related to the new career that I wanted to pursue. I job hopped 4x in the past 4 years and more than double na ung salary ko ngayon (vs when i started this career). I'm proud to say na I'm good at this profession. I've always met/exceeded targets. The thing is, I lost all the passion that I had for this career.

I was so fired up when I started this career. I even paid for trainings. I curated this "goal resume" where I set career milestones (what skills I should have acquired and trainings I should have completed by year x) and for a time worked on those. Kaya lang naubos ako sa past 4 employment ko. I didn't job hop because I wanted to bump my salary. Nagjob hop ako in the pursuit of a not so stressful workplace. Every time I switched companies, I was always hopeful na ito na yun. But to no avail. Recently lang nagclick sa akin na the nature of my work is also mentally and emotionally exhausting for me. So ung combo nito plus poor management is a recipe for disaster which unfortunately is where I am right now. 6 months in my latest role and I had several anxiety attacks where I will suddenly breakdown at home before reporting to work and then breakdown again in the office. Now, I am taking a leave to rest. I've decided na it's time for me to let go of this career. (PS My circumstances allow me to be unemployed for a while since I'm single and don't have much financial responsibilites) Honestly, I don't know what I'll pursue next. Gusto ko lang sigurong ilabas to.