As an autistic person, this sub feels validating

I'm an autistic adult who grew up with autistic parents.

Growing up I always knew I had more emotional and social awareness than all my family. I craved interaction and healthy back and forth communication like a starving person craves food, I craved community (my family never had friends), understanding, and all the small things that make relationships rich and real. I craved connection. It was like growing up with this immense void.

At the same time, I also failed in society because I actually have terrible emotional/social awareness compared to the rest of the world.

Sitting in the middle of the fence, I always felt like I don't belong anywhere - not in my family, not in the world. I feel like a planet without a sun, so to speak. I spin in a void.

I became scarily similar to my parents as I grew because all in all I did get their brain. But I can still see it. I still see all my shortcomings, and their shortcomings, as if I had X rays to see something I can't fix.

I find this sub very and strangely validating both when it comes to my attitude towards my parents AND my attitude towards (some of) my own autistic behaviours. I haven't always found understanding in the autistic community when it comes to expressing these things. Whereas here people describe the same issues.

Thanks, I guess