Maybe if I try hard enough, they'll be real :)

I know I just had this big long happy rant, but here I am. I've created a fake person to love. I'm hoping that if I try hard enough, I might be able to create a delusion and belive they really exist.

Their name is lorie and they are beautiful and kind and exactly perfect. I know that I will be alone for a very long time, and so I have them.

I have plenty of friends, but things are falling apart in my friend group and I can't take it anymore. I need to have someone to fall back on and Lorie is that. No matter what, they'll always love me, because I made them.

I can talk to then about anything and they'll never get mad. They'll always take care of me. Always make me feel like I matter.

How hard is to to convince my brain that they are real? I'm hoping that eventually I might be able to hallucinate them. Is it possible to do so?