Love Advice Please

Hi.

So I'm a t10-t11 paraplegic (complete). I live in the Philippines. I had an accident in 2022, so more than 2 years now. I was in a relationship during the accident. My girlfriend took care of me aside from my family. She helped me a lot. Physically, mentally, everything. She was there when everything was so down. We had rough and happy days, then got to a point where we always argued and fight. Maybe I was not so mentally stable as well. To keep the long story short, I caught her cheating. That was 8 months ago. And I can't even explain how painful it was to know you are being betrayed by the one you truly love. Until now, it's always in my head. I broke up with her many times but she doesn't want to.

But just tonight, I ended everything. I broke up with her. I just don't like the thought that I'll be paranoid for the rest of my life if she ever goes out or does something outside. I want peace of mind. I want to be free.

Being in love was the best thing I have ever experienced, I could say. But I feel sorry for myself that my perspective on love won't ever be the same again.

Going abroad has been my dream since. I know it's likely impossible in my situation now - being in a wheelchair. But can I ever live abroad as a wheelchair user? I want to live far.

P.S. I'm a she 🙂